Having said that, I tend to take things in books literally. On the first day of my 12th week of pregnancy I was extremely upset when I threw up my Ramen noodles. WTF! My second trimester was supposed to be full of sunshine and happiness- not 'morning' sickness.
Turns out... gasp!.... not everyone is the same. I had random bouts of vomiting up until 16 weeks. Nothing helped. Hard candies made it worse, filled my mouth up with even more spit- attractive right? Forget gum. Ginger anything disgusts me. I couldn't exactly stop brushing my teeth for 16 weeks now could I? These books are filled with nonsense!
'They' also said that you would start to feel your kiddo start kicking around 16-20 weeks. 16 weeks came and went... no 'butterflies'. As I asked around- most people said it was more around 20 weeks- eff.
I have been so detached from this little one because it still doesn't seem real to me. Only recently have I really started to show, and even at that I just look like those malnourished kids on TV that you can sponsor for $10 a month rather than a 'glowing' vessel of life. Everytime we see little kicks on the ultrasound and Mondo asks me, "You can't feel that?" I feel like a bit of a schmuck. There is a human being inside of me and I can't feel it.
About a week or so ago I started feeling something that was not gas rolling around in my guts- but it sure as hell didn't feel like 'butterflies' felt like someone was twirling my guts like spaghetti on a fork- not exactly what I was expecting. For several more days I felt this twinging, uncomfortable movement... inside. Still nada on the outside. No matter how much I jiggled or pushed I still couldn't feel him.
I finally felt him on our last day of vacation- still didn't feel like butterflies- more like when someone comes up behind you and flicks the back of your ear. It has taken five more days for Mondo to feel it but I'm so glad that now I don't think I'm crazy anymore and someone else has felt him move!
It is very comforting to know that there is a little guy in there moving around and all is well. It actually calms my nerves to be able to feel him moving- I'm not so sure I'll feel the same way when I'm complaining in 4 months when he is kicking my ribs and I can't sleep anymore- but for now I am loving it. Happy mama here :D
'They' also said that you would start to feel your kiddo start kicking around 16-20 weeks. 16 weeks came and went... no 'butterflies'. As I asked around- most people said it was more around 20 weeks- eff.
I have been so detached from this little one because it still doesn't seem real to me. Only recently have I really started to show, and even at that I just look like those malnourished kids on TV that you can sponsor for $10 a month rather than a 'glowing' vessel of life. Everytime we see little kicks on the ultrasound and Mondo asks me, "You can't feel that?" I feel like a bit of a schmuck. There is a human being inside of me and I can't feel it.
About a week or so ago I started feeling something that was not gas rolling around in my guts- but it sure as hell didn't feel like 'butterflies' felt like someone was twirling my guts like spaghetti on a fork- not exactly what I was expecting. For several more days I felt this twinging, uncomfortable movement... inside. Still nada on the outside. No matter how much I jiggled or pushed I still couldn't feel him.
I finally felt him on our last day of vacation- still didn't feel like butterflies- more like when someone comes up behind you and flicks the back of your ear. It has taken five more days for Mondo to feel it but I'm so glad that now I don't think I'm crazy anymore and someone else has felt him move!
It is very comforting to know that there is a little guy in there moving around and all is well. It actually calms my nerves to be able to feel him moving- I'm not so sure I'll feel the same way when I'm complaining in 4 months when he is kicking my ribs and I can't sleep anymore- but for now I am loving it. Happy mama here :D
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